Tús doiligh leis an mí! / A difficult start to the month!

Bhuel! Thosaigh an mhí seo le pléascadh mar is ceart! Tá mé thar a bheith sásta go bhfuil fuinneamh na gealaí láin thart don tréimhse seo! Uaireanta ní chuireann an ghealach lán isteach orm mórán agus in amanna eile cuireann sí isteach go mór orm! An mhí seo chuir sé isteach orm go mór!

Bhuel! This month has started with a bang! A bang that has subsided I am glad to report and I am very happy that the full moon energy has passed. Sometimes the full moon doesn’t bother me at all and then other times it completely knocks me off my feet. This month, it was definitely the latter that happened!

Thosaigh sé an tseachtain seo caite nuair a thosaigh mé ag smaoineamh ar an todhchaí – drochrud le déanamh sa lá atá inniu ann! Smaoinigh mé ar na scoileanna agus an ligfidh na scoileanna isteach mé agus bíonn ranganna príobháideacha níos neamhchinnte domsa agus tá mé ag déanamh neart oibre ach an bhfuil aon fiúntas leis agus ar cheart dom fíor-phost a fháil agus ar aghaidh liom mall san oíche agus luath ar maidin. Ansin an tseachtain seo, thuig mé maidin Luain go raibh duine éigin i ndiaidh imeachta ó mo shaol, gan tada a rá liom. Bhí mé gortaithe agus ní raibh mé in ann m’aird a choinneal ar aon rud.

It really started last week when I started thinking about the future – ever a good move these days! I was thinking about the schools and would I be allowed back in to teach, I was thinking about courses I am starting soon and how much less certain my own courses always end up being, I am doing a lot of work at the minute but I was wondering if there is or was any point to it all as I’m feeling a bit like I’m jogging on the spot sometimes, I was then wondering if I should just go and get a real job and throw all of this in the bin...and on my mind went late into the night and into the morning. This week then started badly with someone I was seeing deciding to disappear without a word. Great.

Anuas ar sin ar fad tá an dianghlasáil ag cur isteach orm anois. Tá mé braon di anois. Tá sé in am di imeacht. Tá mé ag iarraidh a bheith in ann dul amach mar a ndeachaigh muid cheana. Tá mé ag iarraidh nach mbeidh orainn boird a chur in áirithe agus nach mbeidh orainn fanacht ar shiúil óna chéile. Níl mé ag rá nár cheart go mbeidh an dianghlasáil go fóill ann, díreach go bhfuil mé réidh di imeacht agus ag dul as mo mheabhar beagan.

Being ghosted really just felt like petrol being thrown in the fire that is lockdown. It really started to get to me this week. I’m not a bit partier and I really do enjoy being on my own but we’re taking the piss now. It’s time for it to end, not that I don’t believe that it shouldn’t be there anymore and it should be lifted, just that I’m struggling and doing my best to not go completely insane...

Sin ar fad ráite, d’éirigh liom rudaí beaga a dhéanamh agus uaireanta ní airím ar nós go ndearna mé aon rud le linn an lae ar fad agus bíonn orm cur i gcuimhne dom féin céard iad na rudaí a rinne mé agus mar sin; seo chugaibh iad!

All of that being said, I did manage to do some things this week. I find that, all too often I berate myself for not doing things and the only solution to that is to make out a list of what exactly I have done so here is my list for this week!

• Leag mé plean amach don rang do theaghlaigh atá ag tosú dé Máirt. Tá cúpla spás go fóill ann más suim le héinne agaibh ann. Seo chugaibh an t-eolas ar fad anseo.
  
• I have a plan for next Tuesday’s family classes that are starting on Tuesday. I still have a few places available if anyone is interested. All of the information is here.
  
• Tá mé ag reáchtáil mo chéad dúshlán 5 lá ar Facebook sa ghrúpa seo. Réitigh mé gach rud de sin Dé Luain sula ndeachaigh mé MIA...
  
• I have and am running my first free 5 day challenge on Facebook in my group here. I sorted and scheduled everything on Monday before I went MIA...
  
• Cuir mé nótaí le chéile i gcomhair cur i láthair ollscoile atá agam Dé Sathairn
  
• I prepared notes for a presentation I have to do for college on Saturday.
• D’fhogair mé cúrsa aireachais do dhaoine fásta a bheith mé ag reáchtáil agus tá na sonraí ar fad mar gheall ar sin anseo.
  
• I launched an online mindfulness practice course for adults. All the details are available here.
  
• Rinne mé searmanas don ghealach lán oíche Chéadaoine ar Facebook live agus is féidir libh breathnú air anseo.
  
• I did a Full Moon Ceremony on Facebook live on Wednesday and ye can watch it here.
  
• Scríobh mé agus phostáil mé an blag seo!              
  
• I wrote and posted this blog!

Mar sin, má bhíonn éinne agaibh crua oraibh féin maidir leis an méid a ndearna tú nó a dhéanann tú, déan cinnte go ndéanann tú liosta amach de na rudaí a fad a rinne tú! Bíonn muid i gcónaí níos crua orainn féin ná gur ceart dúinn a bheith!

So for anyone who is being hard on themselves, thinking that they haven’t done much or anything I challenge you to sit down and really think about what it is you have done and write out a list. In my experience we are normally a lot harder on ourselves then we need to be!